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So seeing as I’m using this tumblr as my therapist, I’ll start from when the crush happened.

It was at our schools winter concert, where my choir was preforming. I had a solo, and was feeling a little nervous as my teacher had thrown it at me last minute and it was a complicated piece, so I guess I was looking a little distressed.

He came over from where the band was sitting, he plays with them as I’m at a small school, and he went to talk to my math teacher who’s in the choir. As soon as he walks over though, he sees me sitting on the risers and squats down so we’re eye to eye.

He leaned in really close and said to me, “Why won’t you smile?” To which I responded, “because I’m nervous…”

He then moved away a bit, and said, “I wish you would, you’re so pretty when you smile.” To which people around awwed and giggled about. He then stroked my cheek and got up to leave.

And that was it. I was hooked.

Somedays I think about the world and all the stupid rules our society has made. I hate having to keep my relationship with him a secret because society thinks it’s “wrong”. Trust me, it’s not. If it were, I don’t think I’d feel like this, or that we’d have gotten together. I love him, and that’s all that really matters. Why should the rest of the world tell us love is wrong, while war isn’t?